Bye 2010, Welcome 2011, or, Being Good for Good’s Sake

Stay tuned for my blog about my new year’s weekend, which was fun, so here is one about the year in general, and next year. Coming off of a very bleh 2009, 2010 was pretty good. I traveled more in 2010 then I think I had any other year in my life. I went to San Diego, then Palm Springs, then to New England, then to San Diego again. Four trips in one year! My parents even visited me in there for easter. I found out that I’m going to be an aunt. I tried lots of new exercises and classes and things. I went out to lots of clubs and heard/danced to some good (and some not so good) music. I read TONS of books. I launched a new restaurant blog, Tastie Tidbits. I worked on fixing up my apartment a bit, and myself. I gave up high fructose corn syrup & have been eating more organic. But what next? It’s a whole new year! At the beginning of the year, i was disillusioned with people. For over two days, i was sad, and stymied over what I should do for the new year, what resolutions should i make? I felt like i should make something big. Other people were getting me down. I had made a resolution at my birthday to seriously try dating in the new year, but when i looked at couples and their togetherness, i really didnt want that. Even large groups of friends, being social and stuff, didnt look fun. I had a choice – let all of these people turn me as bitter and self-serving as they can be, and thus make them right about me, or just be good for good’s sake. I thought and thought. I wanted to write, but I couldn’t settle my thoughts. Finally, i came to a conclusion. It’s letting other people win to be the way they think I am, so I will be myself, and good inside, just for good’s sake. I want to want the company of other people. I’m not really there yet, but my resolution is to work towards it. My resolution is to ensure that i don’t become as jaded as others are. My best friend made a resolution to make everything negative positive, and said I should too, since everyone says we’re twins, but I won’t go THAT far. I’m not saying i want to be naive or a pushover, I don’t. But I am going to try to work to keep myself me inside. Besides that major resolution, I’m going to keep trying new things, new classes, etc, even when they make me feel a little anxious, because I love trying new things. I’m going to work on my apartment, so it looks more like a home for grownups, and less like a dorm. I’m going to keep putting effort into my blogs. I’m going to continue to live to have fun – lots of exercise, good food, great books, good tv shows, lazing around my house, great music, going out dancing, all of my favorite things. I often just feel like giving up and becoming the person that people assume I am, but i resolve to not let it matter what other people think, and just be me.  2011 should be interesting, because I have absolutely no plans or expectations for it, so anything can happen…I wonder what will!!